September 12, 2016 – Birthday Number Four
This week is our sweet girly’s birthday. She’s turning 4.
I’m pretty sure she’s not ever had a birthday party. She may not have even had birthday gifts until today. We left behind a birthday bag full of treats, books, toys and bangles that were significant on our trip. I hope she loves them and remembers our time together.
Those 19 days together seem so far off now. I love telling friends about her and all we learned about her in that time. Seeing her personality come out more and more everyday… such a kind, loving, funny, talented child. Showing videos are especially my favorite – I took over 1500 pictures and so many videos of her dancing, singing, talking with Bill. The dancing videos are the best!
… such a kind, loving, funny, talented child.
We have been home for exactly a month at this point and life has gotten back into the swing of things – for the most part. Liam has started back to school, Bill and I are back to work, we grocery shop, go to the movies, spend time with friends, do our own laundry… I do miss someone else doing our laundry.
So many things remind me of our lovey girl. So many things I see or hear that she would love. She loved the song “Try Everything” by Shakira from the Zootopia movie. I think we listened to it, oh maybe 100 times. Thankfully I am to a place where I can smile when I think of her rather than burst into tears. We had a lot of that the first week home.
What do we know? Where are we with the adoption? We are waiting!
Uganda is a non-Hague country with their adoptions, which means that they don’t really need to be truthful about the child, and they certainly are not transparent about the process, legalities, etc. As an American, that’s hard to digest. We want to know everything, have it all laid out in a nice neat package.
We have discovered several things that are not as they either were presented or done correctly with our sweet girl’s adoption.
This has brought us to a spot where we are just leaning on God for the next steps. I especially feel so hungry for the Lord to feed into me His Word. I have found so much comfort in books, in Bible verses, in quiet times of prayer.
When God speaks to me, He presents verses over and over to me. When I was preparing for my first trip to Uganda, one verse that was drummed into my noggin was Hebrews 11:1…
“Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”
It was a leap of faith to take the mission trip in 2015 and when I returned I had a different perspective on so many things and saw God work is the most miraculous ways in me and in others.
So over the last week, God has a NEW verse for me…
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.
I don’t like new things, but change is coming, and it may not result in our dreams coming true. It may result in us NOT having our sweet girl come home. Maybe God has another child planned for our family, maybe He took us down this path for a reason yet to be revealed.
All I know is thankfully, through our faith, Bill and I are at peace with whatever God has planned next for us.
“Have you ever found yourself in that place in your journey where you have lost heart? You have waited patiently for what you believe God has promised you, and now it seems humanly impossible. That’s the point for you and me, too, because it’s there, exactly in these kind of circumstances, where God does some of his best work.”
Excerpt From: “Beautiful Things Happen When a Woman Trusts God” by Sheila Walsh.